Monday, May 29, 2006

Measurements: 37-31-40
Weight: 156 lbs

The most noticeable change has been my voice. I hadn’t done much practice with it pre-fulltime but just started talking in my femme voice all the time since then.

It has gotten really good apparently (at least this is what everyone else keeps telling me). Some have said I have a deep voice but it is a really good sounding feminine voice. Some say my voice isn’t deep at all. One person even commented that I sounded classy.

I really don’t know how I sound but I think I sound fine because I don’t ever get any weird looks or reactions when I speak to people when I’m out and about doing everything I used to do as a boy.

I don’t really know what to say though to explain how I did manage to speak this way. It is definately tough and hard to explain. This is probably the reason why most voice sites kinda suck.

A few things that I really remember to do and worked on:

1. Stopped my chest from resonating when I spoke. I guaged this by holding my hand flat against my chest between my breasts and felt how much it resonated when I spoke. There is very minimal resonation now. This was a tip from my therapist. Some say you need to stop your bottom or upper half (cannot seem to remember) of your voice box from resonating. I guess this worked better for me as I failed at doing that. I ended up talking falsetto.


2. I consciously remembered to speak with inflections. Inflections are the up and down stresses you make on words when you speak. Typically men talk monotone and drab while women have more beat to their voices. Like you might emphasize "Hi" and deemphasize "how are" and re-emphasize "you?" Stuff like that but you do it with longer words as well. Like "hello" You can emphasize the "lo" part more then the "hel" part.


3. Surprisingly, my feminine voice is very close to my male voice. It’s weird to explain but it just seems that way. Many say I sound really natural because of this.


4. I can talk deep if I want to still but I actually have to force it low. I no longer can sound the way I used to as a male. It’s kinda cool really. My roommate and I tried this a couple weeks ago and we both just couldn’t talk like we used to.

My breasts haven’t increased in any cup size but again, have filled out more and are more round and fuller. I’m happy with this but not happy with the A size after 2 years. I am planning to have breast augmentation later this year or early next year.

The rest of my body is ever slowly changing. I have gained several pounds since I moved to Florida and it’s packed onto my butt. It’s kinda welcomed really. My skin is about the same as it has been for awhile now. It’s smooth, soft and shiny/translucent.

My leg hair is probably more sparse then before but it still grows back all the time, darn! However, the hairs on the tops of my hands are disappearingslowly. There are far fewer hairs there then before.

I think I have come to the end of facial laser hair removal. After 8 sessions on my face, pretty much all the dark hairs are gone. Fortuneately, I don’t have many blond hairs on my face so I hope that electrolysis sessions are going to be minimal.

After 6 months of fulltime, I have loved life so much more. It is the most liberating feeling to be able to express myself and live the way I want to. My job has been wonderful with my transition. I haven’t had any problems there and my co-workers and boss’ don’t slip up anymore with the old name and the him/he pronouns.

I have changed almost everything over to my new name. I have my birth certificate, passport and my car loan to switch over to Erin and I’m pretty much done. Changing your name on all your accounts suck. Definately a long process. Get a credit report, it’s the best way to find what accounts you have open or closed ones.

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